Been thinking about this a lot lately, but can’t seem to hold on to “it” when I can write about it – hope I can say it now.   The artist I am today, I was at 14, but I just did not know how to finish anything at 14, or 24, or 34 or after.   I had no real concept of what “finished” was – or how to complete anything.

In a way, every painting is already done in my mind, before I pick up the brush or pastel, or whatever; it always was that way – could not accept it earlier in my life.   In a way, everything I do now I did when I was 17 except one thing – I lacked a clear concept of what I wanted to achieve when I painted as a teenager and a young man – and I could not figure out what was me vs. being like the artists I admired.

When I paint now….it’s all me.  No matter who I admire – it’s my vision and my self development that I care about.  I think Self Development is the most “aligned” reason to paint today. 

So..if the painting is already done .. why does it need to be painted at all?  Because ….. the painting needs to be “realized” - the Artist needs to experience their own creation - yet it’s all done even before you pick up the brush; that’s my approach. 

I can stop when I see it’s done.. did not have that at 17.

In a way..the Trip to France I’ll be taking in a month or so…already happened.  I’ve been to Paris and Aix in my imagination – I’ve stood in Cezanne’s studio – and it’s as real, in a way, as if I had done it here, in physical world.

In fact, maybe my whole life already happened, and I’m just experiencing what already is. 

Maybe what we most need to watch out for is that we’re aligned to the path our life really needs to take – the rest should take care of itself.

Ok, enough rambling about Art.