Painted some more today and looked at SireN of Jellousy, which I liked.

So, I got frustrated, painting on paper, running out of certain oil pastel colors, I used acrylics freely and then discovered something totally unexpected.

It’s quite possible I can combine acrylics and oil pastels, by using acrylics first, broadly, then going over, with oil pastels, or oil paint.

Wow!

While updating an iPhone painting with further ideas (see below), noticed as I made changes to update my drawing – the rest of the painting also changed.

I saw this idea in my mind that a painting is never actually finished, but it can be complete, at any level, if the work follows the same vector.

Had a  rich weekend; got an idea for a painting coming out of issues and needs I currently have, but I also needed to exorcise a daemon, so to speak and the result is a large painting I did in Oil Pastel on Paper which I called The SireN of Jealousy.

SireN of Jelousy – Marshall Sponder 2008 – Oil Pastel on Paper 48″ x 56

I first worked out the idea on for this large painting using my iPhone – and I won’t say that I got the exact thing in the Oil Pastel that I got on the iPhone – the medium is entirely different – I think I carried my idea (above) past what I had on my iPhone.

You can also see how the painting above was generated - except the orientation is wrong on the CollectingSmiles.com site.

Actually, I’m beginning to think that “Art” might be a path for the release and transmutation of base feelings into Gold – a form of  Alchemy.

Consider this – I painted the SireN of Jealousy  to change a feeling I had – I could have acted on feelings in any number of ways – but by acting  in this way – I’m changing one feeling into another.

But what if we continue to work the same feeling/issue, in a series of work that keep evolving – would it be possible that one could actually evolve that way?

And, in evolving – could the work done in such spirit be transformed in viewers?

I don’t know, but I’d like to think, “Yes”.

Got chilled waiting on line for the Engadget event last night in New York City – what a whaste (one hour on line in the cold for a packed venue with little else going for it).

Anyway, today, grappling with a few deamons – I went to Brooklyn Artists Gym to draw from the model and sign up to use the studio regularly – which I did.

Here’s what I drew – spent 2 hours on it – using the iPhone

Also, here’s the playback of this painting

I’ve thought a lot about what I can learn from watching how my own work evolves and my feeling is – that my choices seem a lot more logical when I view them via a playback than when I’m doing them.