Have to be careful not to copy other titles to posts that I’ve done already - I was about to call this post “Two Still Lifes” but I did that already, so I’ll this post “Two More Still Lifes”.

I started on this one last night, briefly, then left to go to Mashable Party in Manhattan  - Attended Mashable Meetup Party tonight in Manhattan.

Today I came back and worked on the still life a couple of more hours but it’s not the image I had in my mind to paint - and honestly, it’s more of a study.

Yes, I was thinking Cezanne, but I was also thinking about the Caravaggio book I still haven’t finished.

Finally, I gave up on it after a few hours and worked on the next piece for a bit and then decided to stop, left it at the level you see below.

 

Both are on 18 x 24″ Canvas paper.

These works were done out of a need for solitude and I’m also processing the fallout for a hastily made decision not to speak at Emetrics Toronto; I missed a chance to really stand out, and it’s mostly my own fault, though not entirely mine - it’s a long story.

This week i had not gone to any openings but did attend three parties, meetups and such - so I can’t say that much about works I’ve seen, besides my own.

Don’t know what else to call my paintings - but I like the one I did today.

Had a lot of thoughts while painting - and I allowed myself to “go” a little.   Since I’m doing the work for myself, I’m the only one that needs to like it.   I do struggle with the idea that I’m not doing something that looks more “modern” but I find this is what’s comfortable for me to do right now - paint this way - so that’s what I’m doing.

Finding the work I’m doing over the last two months has a “glow” or energy about it where it’s difficult to actually focus on what the painting is of - sorta like I’m going after a halo type effect that is interpenetrating the objects I’m painting.

And that’s fine - who says a painting, or any work of art, is really about being representational?

Anyway, I’m writing this while still in my studio - now it’s time to have dinner.  I’m glad I did something today that I actually like - my last two sessions here - I felt sorta “empty” and it wasn’t really happening for me.  Today it was different - a rainy day too - quiet - good for painting too.

I see something new with my work, something different about the composition - I’ve been focusing on it, allowing it to become part of my work.

Struggled to finish this small study - I went over to the studio to try to stretch one or two canvasses I had done recently possible entry into a show in early fall.

I don’t think I even want put my work onto Stretchers - but I did not have the right size stretchers with me anyway. 

Meanwhile, the 300,000 visit arrived on my Webmetricsguru.com blog this afternoon, while I was painting and I observed as the visit came in and then posted immediately after - 300,000 visit to Webmetricsguru was from Guilford, Connecticut.  

Getting back to the still life, that “new thing” feels to me, like a way to compose space - but I haven’t seen what I’m doing anywhere else - which is good - I’m not out to copying anyone else.

The Window View I did last week had the same sense of a composition and color that borrows from no one, in particular - it’s coming out of me, out my own way of seeing.